One day I will laugh about the posts being put in for my addition. I can see us now–me with a glass of wine telling friends about how my heart raced as I discussed with multiple members of the construction team about the three steel beams being used to hold up the future second story of my house. I will tell them how I obsessed over how to make them stick out less and look more like an architectural choice and not necessary structural support that could not fit within our four-inch walls.
But today… today as I write this… I obsess. I cannot stop thinking about the fact that I now have a steel beam where my backsplash once was in my kitchen (the kitchen that wasn’t going to be touched during my remodel). I have been assured it is all going to blend in afterward and I won’t even know the beam is there, but somehow I’m not 100% sold. In my heart, I am certain they’ve made a mistake but I feel like no one is listening to me.
I also can’t stop thinking about the off-center beam that is between two windows in my kids’ current bedroom and how the heck we are going to make it look like it makes any sort of sense as it stands there protruding out two inches and how to tie it into our cove ceilings. I think about how the two steel beams will stick out ever so much in our new/updated family room and what “design element” we will employ to make it look “right.”
We are a month and a half into construction and these are some of the things we weren’t really made aware of prior to the addition starting. Don’t get me wrong. We figured there would be surprises, but we kind of assumed they would have to do with the fact that the house is old and had two other (shotty) additions by previous owners–not stuff having to do with the new addition.
One day, I will smile and think that I worried over nothing. For now I just see dollar signs and feel disappointed as I try to reimagine my vision of these rooms.